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Written by Carolyn
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Monday, 21 July 2008 |
As I walked down the aisle to deliver messages and serve Spirit last week at Inspiration Stump at Lily Dale, New York, I recalled my husband’s definition of public mediumship at Lily Dale: “Three seconds of terror, followed by ten minutes of bliss.”
I remembered those words the next day, when I sat in a back row bench
at Forest Temple (also in Lily Dale) and saw a young woman preparing to
deliver her first public message. That was once me, I
thought, as I watched the student medium trying to meditate away her
jitters. Me, and every other medium who have ever closed our
eyes, stood at the edge of our confidence, and leapt off into space
with nothing in our parachute except faith.
Briefly, Lily Dale is the largest Spiritualist community in North
America. Spiritualists believe that death is just a transition, and the
soul not only continues on, but loved ones and friends who have passed
into spirit are available to help and support us through life – if we
welcome it. Lily Dale, a gated community, opened in 1879. Today during
the summer months, it hosts three daily public message services, where
mediums from around the world serve Spirit. (To learn more about Lily
Dale, see the Toronto Star article at
http://www.thestar.com/Travel/article/452911.)
Even though I have been studying, teaching and using my abilities as a
psychic medium for more than 28 years, and have worked one-on-one with
clients for several decades, it was only in 2003 that I, too, screwed
up my courage and delivered my first public message – in front of over
200 people at the Stump in Lily Dale.
I did it because I wanted to challenge myself. I also wanted to thank
Spirit for supporting me through life. Because, after all, isn’t that
what message work is all about – giving service by helping people heal
their grief by bringing them evidence that their loved ones are still
with them?
And so I sat there on that afternoon about five years ago, sweating
bullets and heart hammering in my chest, waiting for my name to be
called. (It’s true what they say: Our number one fear – more than the
fear of death or even fear of snakes – is the fear of public
speaking.)
“Our next medium is a visiting medium from Toronto, Canada: Carolyn Molnar.”
It took a moment to register that the chairman of the message service
had called me. ME!! I swallowed hard – a softball was stuck in my
throat. My lungs felt like lead weights as I unsteadily rose to my feet
and stepped down the gravel path toward the Stump. I passed benches and
benches filled with people, and felt hundreds of pairs of eyes watching
me.
I stood before the Stump and stared out at the sea of faces. In my head, I said a silent prayer, then whispered “C’mon guys.”
Time stopped.
Oh, no! I thought. I’m not getting anything! Help!
Suddenly, I felt like I had tunnel vision, and my eyes honed in on a
woman in the fourth row who was imploring me with her eyes. I knew I
needed to speak with her.
“The lady in the blue shirt,” I heard myself saying. “May I come to you?”
Once I started talking, my fear melted like warm butter. Words just
seemed to flow. I’d opened the floodgates, and Spirit carried me.
Energized, I didn’t want to stop talking. I could’ve talked for another
hour.
Unfortunately, I don’t remember the two messages I delivered – I rarely
do – but the chairman of the service smiled and thanked me as I walked
back to my seat.
Flash forward: True confession time!
I still get a little nervous before I do public message work, but I
don’t stay skittish long. I felt like telling that to the student
medium who was readying herself to deliver her first public message.
Then I glanced around at all the other wonderful Lily Dale mediums who
have, collectively, eons of experience. I bet Pat Price, John White,
Bonnie White (no relation), Barbara Sanson, Sharon Klingler, Anne
Gehman and every one of the very talented mediums at Lily Dale has his
or her own story of first-message stress.
Fly, I wanted to tell the young woman in front of me. Close your eyes and take that leap of faith. Spirit will
guide and support you.
If you have any questions or comments on this or any other subject
relating to mediumship, I’d love to hear from you. Write me at from the Contact Us page on my website, and
please visit me again!
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Carolyn Molnar
Psychic Medium and Spiritual Teacher
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Welcome |
This website is dedicated to the life and work of my mentor, Reverend Sadie Nickerson.
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