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Written by Carolyn
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Monday, 30 June 2008 |
No matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t give the young woman a public
message. And yet, deep down, Spirit was telling me not to leave this
woman alone. And, later, after I finally talked with her, I understand
why it seemed like an invisible wall was surrounding her.
At a recent public message event near Toronto, I tried going through the audience to deliver mediumistic messages to everyone in attendance. But when I got to this woman, I hit a psychic roadblock.
After concentrating hard for a few moments, I asked her name – let’s say, Lucille – and began tuning in to her vibration. “A man is coming in for you,” I told her, wondering why she had at first seemed so hard to read. “Spirit is showing me that he’s digging through the dirt for worms. He’s a fisherman, and he used to go worm hunting at sunrise. And sometimes, he made a big joke of it.”
Lucille looked at me stonily. Meanwhile, the woman behind Lucille waved her arm excitedly. “That’s my dad,” she said with a laugh.
I gave that woman a message from her father, then focused again on Lucille. “Ok, I’m getting a male energy,” I said, as an image became clearer in my mind. “He passed from a car accident. But he’s showing me a motorcycle. Two motorcycles.”
Another blank look from Lucille. But a man sitting two chairs away from her raised his arm and nodded thoughtfully. “Sounds like my cousin,” he said with a grunt. “He died when a car hit one of his Harleys.”
After a third try with Lucille, in which a female energy came in, but was quickly claimed as the grandmother of the woman sitting in front of Lucille, I began wondering if Lucille was a portal – a person whose energy draws in spirits for others. Yet… There was something in Lucille’s eyes that drew me toward her. Spirit wouldn’t let me leave this woman alone. I just <it>knew<> there was something important I needed to tell her. So I said to her, “How about I speak to you after the event?”
Tentatively, she nodded. And for the next couple of minutes, I continued giving messages to people with no problem.
Afterward, Lucille waited patiently while several audience members approached me with questions about Spiritualism, psychic intuition, meditation and even the stone I was wearing around my neck (jasper). Then I took Lucille aside and we sat on folding chairs, facing each other.
Suddenly, the emotional floodgates opened. I perceived an intense sadness that surrounded her, despite her shining brown eyes and delicate smile. Mystified, I couldn’t understand why, ten minutes ago, I had struggled to come up with anything, when now I was getting so much grief, I felt like asking my guides to turn it off.
“The person you were hoping to hear from this afternoon,” I said, speaking from my gut. “A woman… a young woman, like yourself...”
And then in her mind, I saw her. And I felt her anguish.
“She completed suicide,” I said quietly. “She was confused, and angry. She couldn’t find a way to process her anger.”
Tears came to Lucille’s eyes. “Yes,” she said. “That’s her.”
“Lucille, it’s not your fault.” I put a comforting hand on her shoulder – or, perhaps, Lucille’s friend was using me to console her. I talked with Lucille a bit more, telling her that her friend was trying to work things out, and that the anger she had taken with her hadn’t been directed at anyone, except herself – and that’s always the hardest type of rage to deal with.
Then I assured Lucille that on the other side of the veil, when it comes to suicide, people aren’t judged by others. They review their life, then evaluate their own actions. Unfortunately, here on the Earth plane, people do judge, and often too harshly. Her friend was still in the process of understanding and trying to go forward, I told Lucille; the good news was she was no longer feeling emotional pain.
As Lucille thanked me and got up to leave, I realized why I hadn’t been able to read her earlier – Spirit knew that hers was a message I shouldn’t deliver in front of others. And even in a public message service or event, some things are better left private. Once again, Spirit’s wisdom amazes me.
If you have any questions or comments on this or any other subject relating to mediumship, I’d love to hear from you. Write me by going to my website, carolynmolnar.com, and please visit me again!
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Carolyn Molnar
Psychic Medium and Spiritual Teacher
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